Random Stuff from Random Thoughts

Is it because I’m not rich?
Is it because I don’t look good?
Is it because I wasn’t enough?
Is it because I am stubborn?
Is it because I talk too much?
Is it because I wasn’t much fun?
Is it because I was too emotional?
Is it because I’m not your type of guy?
Is it because I didn’t give something you want?
Is it because I had too many reasons?
Is it because I express what I truly feel?
Is it because I’m such a crybaby?
Is it because I had lots of friends?
Is it because I gave less than you expected?
Is it because I was too boring?
Is it because I boasted a lot of times?
Is it because I fight for what I believe is right?

Is it because I’M ME?

Or is it just because

You Lied?

To my dearest Allene Kaye,

      There came a time when you came into my life. There came a time when I thought that you we’re just another someone else. There came a time when I thought that I was just hoping for nothing. There came a time when I thought that it was all a just a game. There came a time when I thought that we were just gonna end up wasted. There came a time when I thought that I was fighting for nothing. There came a time when I thought that there was no more chance for a better tomorrow. There came a time when I thought that it would only end up that easily. There came a time when I thought that I would see myself alone in the darkness. There came a time when I thought that you’d just leave me hanging. There came a time when I thought that all of these didn’t make any sense. There came a time when I thought that you were never the right one.  There came a time when I thought that I’ll be wasting my life. There came a time when I thought that I would never be able to love as much as I do to you. There came a time when I thought that what other people think about us matters. There came a time when I thought that all of these was wrong.  There came a time when I thought that we have reached the end of the road.

       BUT at the end of all those times of thinking, there came a time when I finally believed that nothing or no one can ever stop me me from believing in us. That no one can ever change these feelings I have. That all of these are worth fighting for. I love you and I have no plans of turning back on us. As long as I know that my presence is of your pleasure, I would stay by your side giving you all the love possible. You are and will always be the perfect one for me, no matter how people see us. Happy 10th month honey, and I expect a lot more time of my life to spend with you. If possible, I would like to spend the rest of it with you.

     I may have lost a lot of people in my life, but the only one that I can’t imagine my self without, is YOU. I LOVE YOU.

 -Edward Patrick E. Pilares II/April 10, 2012/3:17AM

I wanna watch your sleep in all those nights, and while you’re asleep, I’ll be hugging and kissing and keep on whispering to your ears how beautiful you are. How I wish I’m the only man in your dreams, the only one you see beneath those perfectly shaped eyelids. To tell you how much I love you and I will forever be the man to keep you warm in everynight you are cold, up to the days when we get old. The person to be with you in taking each and every path that you will choose.

Times will get rough and I promise you that through all those hardships and trials, I can assure you, I will be tough. To you I give it all up because I know that of my tears, you deserve each and evey drop.

I know I’m not the type of man you see in the movies but I’ll show you that I can be better than any men in those fairytale stories. There will never be a perfectly happy ending, but I’m willing to take the risk just to keep you by my side in every step that you might take.

All these I promise without asking too much in return, I only need you to let me show you the true meaning of love because I know that only to you I can give better than anyone could ever have.

I Love You

-Edward Patrick E. Pilares II/February 24, 2012/3:45AM

It has been almost six months since you and I went to each other’s arms and I still love you as much as I did since the beginning. Since the day that I have realized that I love you, I already knew that this will be the love that I will have for a long time, or if luck and love will let us, for a lifetime. Since then, I knew, it was you that I’ve been waiting for all along.

We’ve spent our precious time laughing, crying, fighting, travelling, studying, exploring and all the random stuffs we did.  We have a lot in contrast, but such hindrance wasn’t enough to take us away from each other. There were times that I thought it was the end, but we held on to each other and we just keep on holding on tighter as the days, weeks and months passed.

I love you and I know that I always will. I know that you are not the perfect person to love, which is I am too, but behind that thought, I would never want to be with any other person anymore. The love that I have for you will never be diverted to anything or anyone anymore.

There is already a castle in the sky that we built for only the two of us and will serve as a paradise for our love. We are going to fly away with our love for each other. I know that nothing, or no one can give me the reason to leave and I will do my best for you to have no reason for leaving too.

“Today, Tonight, Tomorrow belongs to us and no one can ever take it away from the two of us. Our love will shield all strikes that life will bring before us.”

I Love You Allene Kaye Gonzales Cruz and this love I have for you will never fade. The world may, but my love won’t. <3

(The tears that I’m shedding while writing this are brought about by my indefinite love for you honey, I am hoping, praying, and working hard just to keep you happy WITH ME. I know I can be enough, for you to need nothing else anymore. <3)

I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice,
And the way that we touch,

I love your warm smile,
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring,
To my life everyday,

I love you today,
As I have from the start,
And I’ll love you forever,
With all of my heart.

• To lose you
• To be left by you
• To be hurt by you
• To be cheated by you
• To be fooled by you
• To be taken for granted by you
• For you to fall out of love
• For you to hate me
• For you to break me
• For you to throw me

For: http://allenecruz.tumblr.com/

I Love You Honey <3

Lately you’ve been questioning if I still see you the same way. Cause through these coming years we’re gonna both physically change. Now don’t you know you’ll always be the most beautiful woman I know, so let me reassure you darling that my feelings are truly unconditional, see. Cause I’m not impressed more or less by them girls on the TV and magazines, cause honestly I believe that your beauty is way more then skin deep, cause everything about you makes me feel I have the greatest gift in the world. And even when you get on my last nerve, I couldn’t see myself being with another girl . So don’t waste your time worrying about small things that ain’t relevant to me , cause to my understanding your all I want and need. See what I’m gonna say is I’m here to stay and as long as your love doesn’t change for me Baby darling I swear that i, I ain’t going nowhere . I’ll love you when your hair turns grey, and I’d still want you even if you gain a little weight. The way I feel for you will always be the same, just as long as you love stays the same. I was meant for you and you were meant for me, and I make sure that I’ll be everything you need, Girl the way we are is how it’s gonna be just as long as your love don’t change.

-musiq soulchild

-Edward Patrick E. Pilares II/August 8,2011/2:23am